That Price Hurts My Feelings

I was on the phone with my mom the one day and we were talking about spending money on things that I don’t need.  I am a sneaker head and also I LOVE handbags.  As I was talking to her I realized that I purchased eight bags between January and May of 2020, and that is something that I have never done in my life.  I use to just purchase one bag a month or every two months.  I think I went on a rampage or something or maybe I just plain lost my mind.  No matter what was wrong I realized that I started off this year like I was ballin’.  When COVID hit and my hours got reduced I had to stop and take a hard look at my spending and realized that I needed to be more measured on what I was purchasing and why I was purchasing it.  I also realized that my collection is great for me and I do not know if I want to add to it anytime soon.  I started looking at all of my bags and then I noticed that some did have to go.  My style has evolved from Coach monogram bags to more understated luxury bags with a higher price tag that I never thought I could afford even in my wildest dreams.  I have moments I wish I never went down that path of pre-loved luxury bags.  I took to the mantra of “work hard, play hard” and I felt that I could do that but then it all came to an end when I received the call that my hours were being cut and I had to make sure that I was not living off of my credit cards.  Sure I made a few purchases while on lockdown during some of the sales but I had to be very careful of what I purchased and the amount that I was spending.  

I started the year with a bag I never thought that I would get and that was the Valentino V-Logo Tote in small and that was a bag that was not on my radar but when I found it at such a great price I had to get it.  The last bag that I purchased was the Louis Vuttion Randonnee Leather backpack that I won the bid on at the end of May.  I almost forgot about the bag until my sister sent us a music video from the nineties and the leading lady had the monogram version and I went on a hunt to find one in Epi leather in great condition.  I always pried myself in purchasing luxury at low prices until I felt the need to purchase myself a “this is my final six classes present to myself bag” which was the GG Supreme small packpack from Gucci that I purchased brand new from Farfetch.  I have never in my life spent that much money on one thing besides my computer.  The price was something I never thought I would ever pay for a bag but I did it and never regretted.  I’m careful when I carry the bag but not too careful that I don’t get to enjoy it.  I remember telling my mom the price and she was said that the price hurt her feelings.  I laughed a bit but had to really think about it and I am not a rich person and was I going down a path that could bankrupted me?  I will say COVID really made me check myself on my spending and also made me look at my collection and I realized I love all of my bags but that doesn’t mean that I will stop buying bags it will just make me slow down on my spending.